The constant stress of money, health & holidays seems to get earlier each year. The holidays are getting less important to me. When I was able to work & my health issues weren't as bad I LOVED all the holidays. Decorating, big family gatherings and the kids getting excited about them. Now the family is just who I can count on 1 hand, kids are grown, no money & health problem for me & my mom. I can't seem to get interested or excited about anything. Will this be the last Thanksgiving & Christmas with my mom? Trying to make gifts but I keep messing things up then I get frustrated. This past year has been one of the worst I've had. Every year I say "this year will be better"....but it just seems to get worse than the last yr. The many items on the "to do list" gets longer everyday. Sometimes I wish I could run away at times. For how my life works though that would be too easy...Which my life has been anything but easy!! Just have to keep fighting I guess.
Today's Mood: Overwhelmed